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Prof.Dr. Nevine My Daughter's Room

Mossaad Translated by: Hania Bahaa

Professor of Political Science

the means of livelihood were cut short, and the manifestations of
creativity were restricted. Then I will not soon rebel against this logic ...
There is difference between my feelings when I hear the radio program
the logic that the more the spread of the phenomenon the more it reduces
in which the fathers and mothers in the 1960s used to give songs and
its impact ,so that means when someone else suffers from the
longings to their loved ones who live abroad and it was titled "Our Sons
estrangement of their children, this will reduce the impact of my
Abroad".After I’ve lived the experience having a daughter abroad my
daughter's alienation on myself ... however, It never reduces it. And when
feeling was split in two: where the first feeling, I was eagerly waiting for
the alienation is in the other hemisphere the sense of connection is
that weekly program to hear some of the sweetest songs of the top
minimal. You lose traditional expressions of the type of g ood m orning a nd
singers kept in our radio archive. While the second feeling I was
what time? And it is time for lunch. It loses all its significance as Our
surprised by this reality that was imposed on me living in one country
morning is not like their morning , our clock does not turn in their
and my daughter in another country. And unfortunately the mother
direction, and our lunch may come while they are still in their beds.
feelings do not adapt to globalization and are not subject to its
Someone said: The solution is to fill the walls of the house with hours set
requirements, she does not understand how that from one moment to the
according to the timings of our children, so they will be with us and they
next her relationship with her daughter turns into a mere antenna that
are not. Is it the solution?
carries her voice, after she was tied to her by an umbilical cord for nine
months, which she pumped her daughter through it with little food and a
In her absence, the map of my political interests changed. I no longer care
lot of love and tenderness.
about America because it is the only or greatest pole, but I have become
interested in it because there is a piece of mine on its continent. A
I ran to escape her absence while passing by the open door of her room
devastating earthquake strikes Haiti, so I watch with terror as children
and her unusually tidy bed. The strange thing about this world when my
come out from under the rubble with my head on fire at tens of longitude
daughter was still at home she used to hide in her room or in her big little
and latitude for the location of the event on the map of South America.
world, finishing her work and met her in the hallway of the apartment for
Al-Jazeera broadcasts an interview with the voice of Bin Laden
a few minutes preparing her lunch and then sneaking into her room.
threatening the United States with successive strikes ,S o my heart took off
While hearing her loving laugh rattle from time to time, so I recognize
asking God for kindness in his judgment, I try to be distracted from the
that she is speaking on the phone with this or that friend. When I see the
feelings of anxiety that besiege me, so the mother leaps from inside,
light leaking from the bottom of her room door, so I know that she is
bouncing, and I imagine her forgetting to dry her wet hair, so she does not
reading Mickey or searching on the Internet for a suitable wedding dress.
find me on the lookout as usual, Or she faces a problem o r a nother and s he
when hearing the commotion and noise, so I feel that she is emptying the
hides it because the Travel Law stipulates that we should not exchange
hollow of her wardrobe, searching for her mobile hiding here or there.
news except for the happiest Or she exaggerates her damn diet, so I cheat
Her isolation annoys me and I revolt at her from time to time, telling her
on it with some fat and add it secretly in her food. God is this anxiety
that the house is not a hotel, so she used to react by flirting with me with
about an end?
a brief talk or a short walk or even a small gift, so I forget everything
and I do not hurry to forget the mistakes of the children from a mother. I
When I think about the immediate cause that unleashed this emotional
was always reassured that she was behind this door and at any moment I
charge from its deep in the depths of myself, I find no justification other
yearn for her, I can easily knock on her door and impose myself on her
than the circumstances of my birthday celebration. The family members
world. However, whenever I go now, I can no longer see the door closed
kindly prepared the birthday cake and put four candles on it as a matter of
... I do not like to close it in a vacuum after it was filling her room from
decency, perhaps also because the cake can no longer bear the burden of
wall to wall.
all this long life. They turned off the lights in the dining room, and set up
a call to my daughter on the laptop, so that she could have a voice and a
I memorized the days before her departure, I was moving like a robot
picture with us. I saw my daughter sitting on the edge of her bed wearing
canceling my feelings to get done, preparing her needs and completing
on appropriate clothes for the celebration in order to match the occasion.
her small things, packing her stuffed bags until they almost explode and
Her childish features were filled with joy, and she waved to me from
last
picture
with
Nourhan Osama, Youstina The last picture?! Because why not? No Hesham, Nouran Hossam, Mostafa Sayyed, Reem
take
the
her
Adel,
Nadeen
Maries
...
Ebeid,
thousands of kilometers away. And when my daughter joined everyone in
one knows what the near future will bear to us. I calmed the upheaval of
singing “Happy Birthday to You” I felt more than ever about her absence
Omran , Zeina Tarek, Hana Henien, Hania Bahaa, Yassmine Gamal Hussein, Salma Bayoumi, Mariam Sultan,
emotions that was in my chest and saying that I am not the only one who
and drifted away from irresistible nostalgia for her ... really irresistible
was suffering and faced this situation. In almost every family there is a
Nada Hosny, Jozeph George , Farah Ezz Eldin, Aliyaa Assem, Assile Mostafa, Rana Doss, Mirna Ossama,
nostalgia.
son abroad for work or study unfortunately, after the means of livelihood
Farah Islam, Zeina Arafa.
narrowed in Egypt,
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